Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Get lost

I want to write, I want to be gone, somewhere else. I don't want to die, I never wanted that. I wish to live, I always will. But i want disappear completely and become mindless. Lose my head in another persons life, because of some reason my life isn't good enough, even though I have all I could wish for.  Sometimes it's just not enough. Of course there are some material things I want, but they aren't necessary for a good life.

It's weird that, when I'm done with the days deed, school, grocery, cooking and my homework, all I want to do is become someone else or at least get lost in a story/movie.

I wonder if anyone else have ever felt this way. Always the thought, am I the only one to think this? Am I truly alone?

For me it is just two of they many questions and thoughts I have.

But what I think most of, is the life I want to live. All the dreams I have. So many that I can't even remember them all. When the day comes and my dreams come true, maybe I don't want to escape my own life any more or get lost in another's. Or some fiction.  Because my life will be good enough.

I hope so. I dream of that.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Waste of a weekend

Here I sit, in front of my computer. Sick, my head full of snot and my nose even more snotty.
The only thought I have is "what a waste of a weekend". I could have done so many fun stuff, but this cold just came in and interrupted my life.

My small break from school.

We all know it. It becomes cold outside and your nose start to run. That is just the start. The day after you sit/lie in your bed, unable to do anything else then blow your nose and watch television. Though I prefer playing sims, as the huge sims-nerd I am. I don't really think I helps me get well faster, playing sims. But when I have the time, why not stare at a screen of a game that stimulates the life you want to live when stuck inside of your own home?

This blog post is not very good. I just liked the headline with the alliteration.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Going English and Happy/Mad 'A'

I have a very strong moral/opinion when it comes to money and independence. Though I have begun to realize that, even though it is my opinion, it does not follow my actions. And they should. For me it is important to be independent when it comes to pay for stuff when you become 18. Because in law that’s when you become an adult. In law. Not your mind. If you are taking an education you can get state education grant(I looked this word up on my internet dictionary), so you will have an reasonable amount of money to live for. The price for my standard living is 137,29 dollars, 51,48 for my train transport 85,81 for my food(hopefully). At least that is the expenses I can think of, I know there is more.

I would like to make a sidenote and tell you that my math teacher just used the example of a guy, going to a party becoming more and more exited, the closer he dance to the girls, he used that example as how it gets bigger to explain whether ‘A’ was “happy” or “mad”. Remember we are still have about math and not sex-class (I don’t know what it is called, when you inform teenagers about sex and give them free condoms).

Btw do you get the picture? If not he was talking about penis/sex, but blending it with math to be fun and maybe catch our attention. I just wanted to share my weird math teacher with y’all.

Hmm.. It seems that I have fallen out track.. Well I will tell about my opinion of independence another time.